Friday, April 30, 2010

2nd...

30th april.......friday......raining....
Finally it rains...ah...the whether is so hot lately...cannot tahan...hot like going to burn me la...just finish writing a letter to R...lately she is heartbreaking la...sad to see her like this la...so i decide to write her a letter...hope can help her lo...haiz...sit down and write it for about 2 hour...actually in the afternoon i wrote already...but it comes out error...ha...so angry...write so long and say cannot send...i'm fire hot la...never mind liao la...today nothing to write...so will write again tomorrow...

Thursday, April 29, 2010

1st...

29th april 2010......thursday........windy day...
Am i a talkative person or a quiet person???...hmm...i wonder...
Today morning having breakfast...like usual...n N was sitting in front of me...we talk...n she told me that she LIKES S...n i was like...ya i know...u have told me at bakery class...n on bakery class she told me...n my reaction is like huh???...i mean it...HUH???...she likes sean since sem 1...n at that time he had girl friend...so she keep her feelings to herself...later she know that they had broke up...her feeling comes out...n at yesterday night...S come to the restaurant and find chef...n don't know what happen...n she also told me that when the day she cooks the menu...he will come and eat...n i notice her smile...so sweet...SWEET...happy for her...but now she doesn't know they R actually likes him too...when N told her she likes S...her heart broken...i'm speechless...i don't know how la...never meet up situation like this before...don't know how to talk to R la...n just now in class...she saw N and S was passing papers to each other...n she told me...n i don't know what to say to her...Actually she knows that she will don't have chance already...but she she still don't want to give up...why ah???...STUPID...if know no chance...then let go la...if not will suffer even worst...but she don't want to listen...anyway...i advice her already...so now is up to her la...i wants to tell N just now...but end up i hold on to it...don't know why...SHIT...n another weird thing is that R ask me to drive back to palazzo just to go and take a pair of socks to lend her...what men...waste of my petrol nia....there is no benefit in me...she wants to go bowling alley...so ask me for a socks...CRAZY...purposely ask me to drive back to take socks....wait la...KEE XIAO...is your problem la...not mine...why must i care...n she say because i stay near...or...so stay near must take for you la...WAIT...BAN BAN TAN...SHIT...HATE IT MAN...she actually don't understand why last evening i was so angry...for a long time i never fa pi qi liao...yesterday came out...ask me to go take hot water n the water takes a long time to full the container...n nobody came to help me...n when i went back to the restaurant...there is nobody around...this makes me angrier...SHIT...think i'm who...i usually don't refuse to people when they ask for help but doesn't mean that i won't refuse...sometimes i will refuse also...i'm not your maid...next time take yourself...STUPID...now i know more clearly who is she...she is so bossy...she is older than me...but her thinking is USELESS and CHILDISH...THINK youself la...and think twice before you do or say anything...SHIT...can't grow up...what man...GROW UP LA SHIT...STUPID...ahhhh...feel more better...


Wednesday, April 28, 2010

feelings...and also memories...

29th April 2010..........12.10am..........good whether....
haiz....haiz...haiz...tired la...can't continue let this...i can DIE soon...i really x100000 hope that the kitchen can be done soon...soon i means fast soon...if not is really DIE...why???...even today my mom calls me and keep asking me why so late...normally on wed...i'll be at palazzo around the latest 10.30pm...but today later coz got one person comes late...that is around 9.30pm...so everything turns out late...i even had my dinner late at about 10pm something...i think...with my group mates...so after eating and cleaning is already about 10.45pm...so after briefing...is around 11pm...i quickly run to my car and drive to palazzo...so reach palazzo at about 11.10pm...LATE...haiz...ah...forget to mention that i'm the only girl in my group...today i had lots and lots of fun playing and working around with them...i don't know why coz i suddenly felt i had become talkative...i don't know why also...weird...coz normally i don't talk much in class...but after i come back from singapore...don't know why and how...i'm so talkative...talks a lot and also laugh a lot...am i crazy???...don't know la...coz at the beginning when chef darren grouping us...i'm so quiet that i don't dare to talk...but today i can talk to them...sit down and have dinner with them...laugh with them...joke around with them...WEIRD...what had happened to me???...ah and also the others...not only my group...is all the group A mates...
~~~on the 19th to 23rd of april...i went to singapore with college...the purpose is to go the FHA...that is food and hotel asia...wah it is big and interesting and a knowledgeable trip...""for more info...pls refer to macintosh HD.dianneewe.pictures.family photos.Singapore and FHA Trip 2010 or Singapore Trip 2010(pictures from othes)...''''not only go to the singapore expo...but also go to Universal Studio Singapore...yeh...i'm having lots of fun at then...enjoying myself with my friends...Rebecca...May...Lilian...E-Hun...Tsu Chuen...Zhi Kang...the twins,min chu and min qiao...sheng cheong...i'll cherish the moment when i was in Universal Studio...it is the most memorable time for me...~~~
After come back from the trip...everything is different...most of the boys approach to me and i don't know why...that why i said WEIRD...and talk to me...joke around me...again...WEIRD...i don't know why...i hope got someone can tell me why...so in conclusion...after this trip...everything changed...even rebecca also said me very active...is this the real me???...keep asking myself and i could not answered...WHY???...On the 27th...that is tuesday...is my fruit carving exam...well and some call it project...so won't so stress for some...this word 'exam' is too pressure...even for me...so i just take it like a project...just try my very best...hah...who know...i did quite well...satisfied...carve a quite wonderful flower...mua yi...but for the presentation...not that good coz the other group members did not carve well...well the 1st i want to complain is Hooi Ling...hate her...nobody in group A like her...all very geram her...i don't know what is she carving...she luan luan carve de...i think i will lose the presentation marks because of her...hate her...HATE HER...she carve like...well...only a word to describe...SHIT...i don't understand why she come and study chef programme...she don't have the skills la...SICK of her la...now is already 12.54am and i'm still writing although i'm very very very tired and exhausted....SO...in final conclusion...i'm very happy that i finally can mix around with the boys...without my the shyness already...but the truth is still have a bit la...cannot mention all is gone...ha...