27th May...thursday...1.12pm.........
these few days i'm been thinking that am i a visible or an invisible person???...don't know why i have these feeling these days...sometimes they talk, laugh and more with but sometimes no...some of them like totally ignore me...did i do wrong ah???...i'm trying to mixed around but if they continue act let this...how can mixed in leh???...so suffer for me...if i don't talk much...say i'm quite...i talked...say i'm talkative...when i'm at home...i can talk from a thing to nonsense...but at college...i can't...don't know...i guess i do care what people think about me...if keep on let this...i'll lose all my confident...go for seminar also no used...actually i have confident de...but don't know how i can lose them just a blink...haiz...don't know what to do la...had been a week i did not write...not free...buzy...assignments...night classes...i'll go crazy soon...like this tuesday...culinary arts and design class...doing painting and R didn't come to class...i was alone...and like i'm invisible...i'm just standing there and non of them see me (the group people)...i had broken my record...that is did not talk for more than 1 hour..."thumb up" for me...haha...don't know why my heart feel not good...like heartbroken...very sour feeling...why???...i'm trying to get my confident back now...but how???...is very hard la...my confident level left only i think 20%...haiz...write tonight...1.28pm...
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
11th....
18th may...tuesday...11.53pm.............
7 more minutes to 12am...the next day...haiz...so tired...but still there is some friends went out to eat dinner...wa...i hope that i can go too...but can't...is impossible...if my mum finds out...i'll kena from her de...is dangerous...better don't...if my grandpa and aunt knows...i'll also can't figure what will happen to ME...don't want to think about that...i'm so hungry now ...just now i should eat more...see la...now hungry pula...haiz...yesterday in the 17th...morning wake up at 9am...then go pasar with mum...after that go makan...at 11.00am 'fly' to penang...12.15pm reach class room...i'm always late on mon...hehe...then class finish at about 2pm...then go canteen makan with friends...then discuss the presentation stuff until 4.25pm...then go class room...presentation time...total got about 10 groups to present...and each group have a chance to be a judge, time keeper and the person who ask the presenter questions...goes quite well...good...ao finish late...at about 7pm...actually before that...i get a phone call from yeng em em...but i didn't reply or call back...then koko call...still at class...so didn't pick up again...when class ended...mum call...i pick up...she ask they were looking for me...i thought the last thursday i got mention that class will finish at 6.30pm...forget...haiz...and i thought she got take note...who know...no...not yet night already rush...rush...rush...can't imagine if is at night...charm la...hiaz again...let write about today...like usual...go to college early...reach college go have breakfast first...the go library play zuma revenge...then at about 11.30am go canteen...sit sit only...then 12pm go class for CAD 1 class (culinary arts and design 1)...half way go canteen have lunch...finish at 5pm...go to kitchen for bakery class at 5.30pm...do croissant...not as easy as it seems...so hard...takes time...that is why come back at 11pm something...tired...and chef say the actual croissant is use unsalted butter...not pastry margarine...so even harder...because butter melted easily...need to fold once...the put in the freezer...because the freezer keeps on open and close...so is hard to freeze...have to wait, wait and wait...leg pain ah...and more thing is that because the yeast is not accurate...so the dough cannot double the saiz...problem...thanks to someone...i'm so pissed off...then someone help to put the unbaked croissant to the oven but forget to press on...again...lucky i got saw...is not charm lo...don't know when only can be done...chef zaihan not feeling well...tooth ache...he looks so tired...so i said i'll help the end...so he go back first...pity him...not well still can teach...my class is a very noisy class...but he still can manage...thumbs up for him...ho liao...when i come back to palazzo...the stupid person parks his two car at the top...pissed off again...already very tired and still this situation...stupid person...down got place to park...his pivate place...don't want to park...so park one of his stupid car at my spot...i'm so angry...really stupid...hate him and his family...too sombong and think that he is the greatest...use money to buy the dato title...let this kind of person be a dato ah???...stupid and cray...very useless...HATE HIM AND HIS FAMILY...angry now...haiz...that is all for now...12.24am...
7 more minutes to 12am...the next day...haiz...so tired...but still there is some friends went out to eat dinner...wa...i hope that i can go too...but can't...is impossible...if my mum finds out...i'll kena from her de...is dangerous...better don't...if my grandpa and aunt knows...i'll also can't figure what will happen to ME...don't want to think about that...i'm so hungry now ...just now i should eat more...see la...now hungry pula...haiz...yesterday in the 17th...morning wake up at 9am...then go pasar with mum...after that go makan...at 11.00am 'fly' to penang...12.15pm reach class room...i'm always late on mon...hehe...then class finish at about 2pm...then go canteen makan with friends...then discuss the presentation stuff until 4.25pm...then go class room...presentation time...total got about 10 groups to present...and each group have a chance to be a judge, time keeper and the person who ask the presenter questions...goes quite well...good...ao finish late...at about 7pm...actually before that...i get a phone call from yeng em em...but i didn't reply or call back...then koko call...still at class...so didn't pick up again...when class ended...mum call...i pick up...she ask they were looking for me...i thought the last thursday i got mention that class will finish at 6.30pm...forget...haiz...and i thought she got take note...who know...no...not yet night already rush...rush...rush...can't imagine if is at night...charm la...hiaz again...let write about today...like usual...go to college early...reach college go have breakfast first...the go library play zuma revenge...then at about 11.30am go canteen...sit sit only...then 12pm go class for CAD 1 class (culinary arts and design 1)...half way go canteen have lunch...finish at 5pm...go to kitchen for bakery class at 5.30pm...do croissant...not as easy as it seems...so hard...takes time...that is why come back at 11pm something...tired...and chef say the actual croissant is use unsalted butter...not pastry margarine...so even harder...because butter melted easily...need to fold once...the put in the freezer...because the freezer keeps on open and close...so is hard to freeze...have to wait, wait and wait...leg pain ah...and more thing is that because the yeast is not accurate...so the dough cannot double the saiz...problem...thanks to someone...i'm so pissed off...then someone help to put the unbaked croissant to the oven but forget to press on...again...lucky i got saw...is not charm lo...don't know when only can be done...chef zaihan not feeling well...tooth ache...he looks so tired...so i said i'll help the end...so he go back first...pity him...not well still can teach...my class is a very noisy class...but he still can manage...thumbs up for him...ho liao...when i come back to palazzo...the stupid person parks his two car at the top...pissed off again...already very tired and still this situation...stupid person...down got place to park...his pivate place...don't want to park...so park one of his stupid car at my spot...i'm so angry...really stupid...hate him and his family...too sombong and think that he is the greatest...use money to buy the dato title...let this kind of person be a dato ah???...stupid and cray...very useless...HATE HIM AND HIS FAMILY...angry now...haiz...that is all for now...12.24am...
Saturday, May 15, 2010
10th...
16th May...Sun...12.23am..................
now is sunday morning...hehe...not yet sleep...still watching tv...last night guess what time i sleep...haha...4am...wa...geng leh...let write about thursday...hrm...morning class cancel...but i still go early...usual time...then go breakfast 9am...after that go library...online and also looking some books...then 11.30am go canteen eat lunch...mayonnaise chicken...not bad...then about 1.00pm go to lab...class starts at 2pm...finish at 4pm...then i balik kampung...home sweet home...hehe...about friday...i wake up at 10.15am...actually i'm at home...i'm always lazy de...home is always the best ma...then go eat lunch and mum da bao for jason...mei...and dad...and also for mum herself...at afternoon about 2pm go jusco to buy stuffs...then at night cook dinner...pan fry fish and deep fry fish...and porridge...at night watch movie...on saturday...i wake up at 11am something...then go lunch...in the afternoon go eat candol...bring jason to cut his hair...later do chocolate mousse...is nice...then dinner at grandpa place with god dad's family...at 8pm left grandpa house...balik rumah...stay home play zuma and watch movie...again...that is all...12.43am...
now is sunday morning...hehe...not yet sleep...still watching tv...last night guess what time i sleep...haha...4am...wa...geng leh...let write about thursday...hrm...morning class cancel...but i still go early...usual time...then go breakfast 9am...after that go library...online and also looking some books...then 11.30am go canteen eat lunch...mayonnaise chicken...not bad...then about 1.00pm go to lab...class starts at 2pm...finish at 4pm...then i balik kampung...home sweet home...hehe...about friday...i wake up at 10.15am...actually i'm at home...i'm always lazy de...home is always the best ma...then go eat lunch and mum da bao for jason...mei...and dad...and also for mum herself...at afternoon about 2pm go jusco to buy stuffs...then at night cook dinner...pan fry fish and deep fry fish...and porridge...at night watch movie...on saturday...i wake up at 11am something...then go lunch...in the afternoon go eat candol...bring jason to cut his hair...later do chocolate mousse...is nice...then dinner at grandpa place with god dad's family...at 8pm left grandpa house...balik rumah...stay home play zuma and watch movie...again...that is all...12.43am...
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
9th...
12th May...wednesday...9.15pm..............
Wednesday...hmm...is food production 2 class...today's class from night change to morning...but i still like the night class...don't know why...reasons that don't know how to state...so today wake up 6.30am...wa...early right???...but i sleep back until 7am only wake up...then 7.25am go college...the like usual...i have a very light breakfast and a coffee...i usually sit at the down part...but today nadia call me and ask me to sit up...so i sit up with them lo...then at 8am...me and them walk to the restaurant for a meeting...like the 2pm class...slight briefing...everyone's face looks very tired...maybe wake up too early...if stay far...have to come from their home early...if near like me...not that rush...the time i wake up is their time to travel come...hehe...i'm bad huh???...continue...everyone yawn...from today's class starts is doing our personal assignment...starts with the three leader...nadia...kian chin and yong...first chef asked them to slightly brief about their dish...menu and then the most hard part...they must choose their own members...later if my turn...i don't know who to choose la...so hard...continue...then nadia choose choose choose choose ME...i'm like...huh...ME ah???...my eyes open wide...before nadia choose me...she had chosen auther, tart, edward kong, rebecca, tsu chuen and e-hun...then she starts give task...who who who do appetizer...who who who do chicken...who who who do sauce...who who who do dessert and so on...then she choose me to do dessert and rebecca do appetizer because she said easy and won't have much problem...but end up...all 24 of us kena scold by chef...haiz...eh...putar balik...not yet finish...as i was saying...appetizer...ok...then she tell me what to do for dessert...that is first beat the cheese and sugar first...then add in two eggs...vanilla essence...then bake...turn out the texture is out...then lucky rebecca call chef...then chef modified the thing by adding flour and cream...final turns out good...but too sweet...the recipe state to to 500g of sugar and cheese 500g...that is too much...so put only about half...but end up also sweet...the sweet taste had covered the cheese taste...a bit waste...haiz...my fault because i didn't take care well...sorry nadia...i also had apologize to her but i still felt not good...just want to say sorry...i scared that i will pull down her marks...how???...talk about that later...continue...apologized...her dessert is mascarpone cheese xxx blueberry compote xxx puff pastry...forget the name...too long...but end up turns well...luckily...but luckily end up...with the help of chef darren...everything turns out well...very tired day...then we finish at about 3.15pm...then like usual too...have a slightly briefing again...he said that next time if there anything things goes wrong...don't throw...can be modified...he is very good...he can change from a bad to a good...eh...just a saying...don't mean it...chef darren is very good la...respect him...class finish balik kampung...haiz...if because of me...nadia's marks affected...i will never forgive myself...she also the same gua...ok...that all...ah...it autosaved already...quickly...if not later have to wait again...bye...9.49pm...
Wednesday...hmm...is food production 2 class...today's class from night change to morning...but i still like the night class...don't know why...reasons that don't know how to state...so today wake up 6.30am...wa...early right???...but i sleep back until 7am only wake up...then 7.25am go college...the like usual...i have a very light breakfast and a coffee...i usually sit at the down part...but today nadia call me and ask me to sit up...so i sit up with them lo...then at 8am...me and them walk to the restaurant for a meeting...like the 2pm class...slight briefing...everyone's face looks very tired...maybe wake up too early...if stay far...have to come from their home early...if near like me...not that rush...the time i wake up is their time to travel come...hehe...i'm bad huh???...continue...everyone yawn...from today's class starts is doing our personal assignment...starts with the three leader...nadia...kian chin and yong...first chef asked them to slightly brief about their dish...menu and then the most hard part...they must choose their own members...later if my turn...i don't know who to choose la...so hard...continue...then nadia choose choose choose choose ME...i'm like...huh...ME ah???...my eyes open wide...before nadia choose me...she had chosen auther, tart, edward kong, rebecca, tsu chuen and e-hun...then she starts give task...who who who do appetizer...who who who do chicken...who who who do sauce...who who who do dessert and so on...then she choose me to do dessert and rebecca do appetizer because she said easy and won't have much problem...but end up...all 24 of us kena scold by chef...haiz...eh...putar balik...not yet finish...as i was saying...appetizer...ok...then she tell me what to do for dessert...that is first beat the cheese and sugar first...then add in two eggs...vanilla essence...then bake...turn out the texture is out...then lucky rebecca call chef...then chef modified the thing by adding flour and cream...final turns out good...but too sweet...the recipe state to to 500g of sugar and cheese 500g...that is too much...so put only about half...but end up also sweet...the sweet taste had covered the cheese taste...a bit waste...haiz...my fault because i didn't take care well...sorry nadia...i also had apologize to her but i still felt not good...just want to say sorry...i scared that i will pull down her marks...how???...talk about that later...continue...apologized...her dessert is mascarpone cheese xxx blueberry compote xxx puff pastry...forget the name...too long...but end up turns well...luckily...but luckily end up...with the help of chef darren...everything turns out well...very tired day...then we finish at about 3.15pm...then like usual too...have a slightly briefing again...he said that next time if there anything things goes wrong...don't throw...can be modified...he is very good...he can change from a bad to a good...eh...just a saying...don't mean it...chef darren is very good la...respect him...class finish balik kampung...haiz...if because of me...nadia's marks affected...i will never forgive myself...she also the same gua...ok...that all...ah...it autosaved already...quickly...if not later have to wait again...bye...9.49pm...
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
8th...
11th May...tuesday...sunny...11.21pm...............
today is tuesday...means that got CAD 1 class & Bakery class...CAD 1 is culinary arts and design 1...herm...today starts to do starafoam...design last week tuesday...my group planning to do a coral...with sea animal such as crabs, lobster, starfish and shell...so today only manage to do a bit coz not much time...this class left 4 more weeks then presentation...last thing for this subject will be doing butterscapture...using butter i think...wow...should be hard gua...don't know...then class finish at 5.30pm coz we need to clear up the mess...before class starts...as usual...wake up 7.30am...grooming...go college at 8.20am...reach 8.35am...got someone put my airplane again...haiz...know who la...rebecca lo...not the first time...used to this...she always do the same thing...that is tell me will come early tomorrow but end up i reach she not yet reach...the apologies also i used to it...so i purposely don't want to reply her messages...so when she ask...i said i put silent coz my phone when i put silent mode...i don't know a thing...when i put vibration...i can know coz it will vibrate...always the same message..."sorry here...sorry there"...sian already...then go have breakfast at 9.00am...then go library to do my KMD (kitchen maintenance and design) presentation...my group doing stove...then 11.30am go have light lunch...then go to class at 12.10pm with friends...who knows...chef come late again...12.35pm only come...always let this...then class start...at canteeen...suddenly a course mates inform that bakery no class...the chef sms him...haiz...so disappointed...why leh???...because today suppose to do croissant...my favorite...haiz...then i decided to go gurney with friends to watch movie...i felt that so happy...get to go together...is not always have the chance to go out like this...then movie finish at 9.00pm...then rebecca, nadia and i go shake sushi to have dinner...actually...before the movie starts...i and the boys (group c members, now at our group, include kian chin, johnson, edward wong and auther lee) go eat already...eat the food court mee goreng...ma ma dei only la...forget to mention i watch 7.00pm show...the earliest...after talking and eating...finish at about 10.00pm...then go get car and back to palazzo at 10.25pm...luckily...i still can manage to reach...but mummy warned me not to go watch late movie...so cannot go again...afternoon still ok...must follow mummy order...if not i cannot go out already...(mummy call me at 5.45pm and i told her class cancel...at first i don't want to tell...but i cannot control...i just say out...)...anyway...that all for today...just finish looking an article...it state that a person sleep less then 6 hours can die...a normal person should sleep 6 to 10 hours...so ta ta...have to go to bed now...12.04am...oh...is wednesday already...hehe...haiz...cannot save...something is wrong with the line here...very slow...sometimes fast...sometimes slow...cannot tahan...at home line is so fast...don't know they pay so much here for what...very time got problem...now ok already...is auto saved...so a new time...12.14am...
today is tuesday...means that got CAD 1 class & Bakery class...CAD 1 is culinary arts and design 1...herm...today starts to do starafoam...design last week tuesday...my group planning to do a coral...with sea animal such as crabs, lobster, starfish and shell...so today only manage to do a bit coz not much time...this class left 4 more weeks then presentation...last thing for this subject will be doing butterscapture...using butter i think...wow...should be hard gua...don't know...then class finish at 5.30pm coz we need to clear up the mess...before class starts...as usual...wake up 7.30am...grooming...go college at 8.20am...reach 8.35am...got someone put my airplane again...haiz...know who la...rebecca lo...not the first time...used to this...she always do the same thing...that is tell me will come early tomorrow but end up i reach she not yet reach...the apologies also i used to it...so i purposely don't want to reply her messages...so when she ask...i said i put silent coz my phone when i put silent mode...i don't know a thing...when i put vibration...i can know coz it will vibrate...always the same message..."sorry here...sorry there"...sian already...then go have breakfast at 9.00am...then go library to do my KMD (kitchen maintenance and design) presentation...my group doing stove...then 11.30am go have light lunch...then go to class at 12.10pm with friends...who knows...chef come late again...12.35pm only come...always let this...then class start...at canteeen...suddenly a course mates inform that bakery no class...the chef sms him...haiz...so disappointed...why leh???...because today suppose to do croissant...my favorite...haiz...then i decided to go gurney with friends to watch movie...i felt that so happy...get to go together...is not always have the chance to go out like this...then movie finish at 9.00pm...then rebecca, nadia and i go shake sushi to have dinner...actually...before the movie starts...i and the boys (group c members, now at our group, include kian chin, johnson, edward wong and auther lee) go eat already...eat the food court mee goreng...ma ma dei only la...forget to mention i watch 7.00pm show...the earliest...after talking and eating...finish at about 10.00pm...then go get car and back to palazzo at 10.25pm...luckily...i still can manage to reach...but mummy warned me not to go watch late movie...so cannot go again...afternoon still ok...must follow mummy order...if not i cannot go out already...(mummy call me at 5.45pm and i told her class cancel...at first i don't want to tell...but i cannot control...i just say out...)...anyway...that all for today...just finish looking an article...it state that a person sleep less then 6 hours can die...a normal person should sleep 6 to 10 hours...so ta ta...have to go to bed now...12.04am...oh...is wednesday already...hehe...haiz...cannot save...something is wrong with the line here...very slow...sometimes fast...sometimes slow...cannot tahan...at home line is so fast...don't know they pay so much here for what...very time got problem...now ok already...is auto saved...so a new time...12.14am...
Monday, May 10, 2010
7th...
10th May.....Monday.....OK.....10.24pm..............
Hi...dianne here...hehe...just for fun nia...ok...back here...today wake up at 9.30am...actually i must wake up at 8.15am...and i already set alarm...but i cannot wake up...may be i'm too tired...so plan also change...go eat with mum and jason around 10.15am...go eat dim sum...then back at 11.15am...wa...so late...i forget to mention that i have class at 12.00pm...wa...i'm in such a rush...ok...then i decide to change my formal before going because i think will be late and i straight go to college easier...so i take off at 11.30am...go take pei chiew at her grandma house in sentosa...then reach coaster highway at 12.00pm...who knows...jam...ah...so pek chek...about 15 min later...i found out that is JPJ checking the lorries...after getting through...i quickly put oil coz i'm rushing to college...reach at 12.30pm in KDU car park...then quickly run to class...with high heel...hehe...1st time...so ho liao leh me...then class finish at 2.00pm...after class...go back palazzo to put my stuff and change to my casual...then off to gurney to watch IP MAN 2...wa...the movie is very nice...is about bruce lee master, ip man..."李小龙师傅，叶问"...the movie is very good because it teaches me the history of kung fu...cool man...is a vey meaningful story...incredible story la...i watch 2.50pm de...then finish at about 4.45pm...after that go siew yeng em em house to pass jason's passport and also the bak chang...Jason is going to North of Eupore with andy, pek pek, em em and grandpa...at first i also wanted to follow but will miss 6 days class...so on second thought...i don't want to go lo...will miss a lot...so have to wait the next time...haiz...miss a big opportunity...nevermind la...next time go with mum...wait lo...then 6pm go eat pizza hut with pei chiew...eat the new thing...is ok...but is too much mayonnaise...we eat and talk until about 7pm...then we go back...that all for today...nothing much to write...because only 1 class nia la...so write tomorrow...wah...can't wait till tomorrow...coz tomorrow is doing croissant in bakery class...my favorite...so write tomorrow...sure got lots to write de...so bye...now is 10.38pm...still early rite????....hehe..............
Hi...dianne here...hehe...just for fun nia...ok...back here...today wake up at 9.30am...actually i must wake up at 8.15am...and i already set alarm...but i cannot wake up...may be i'm too tired...so plan also change...go eat with mum and jason around 10.15am...go eat dim sum...then back at 11.15am...wa...so late...i forget to mention that i have class at 12.00pm...wa...i'm in such a rush...ok...then i decide to change my formal before going because i think will be late and i straight go to college easier...so i take off at 11.30am...go take pei chiew at her grandma house in sentosa...then reach coaster highway at 12.00pm...who knows...jam...ah...so pek chek...about 15 min later...i found out that is JPJ checking the lorries...after getting through...i quickly put oil coz i'm rushing to college...reach at 12.30pm in KDU car park...then quickly run to class...with high heel...hehe...1st time...so ho liao leh me...then class finish at 2.00pm...after class...go back palazzo to put my stuff and change to my casual...then off to gurney to watch IP MAN 2...wa...the movie is very nice...is about bruce lee master, ip man..."李小龙师傅，叶问"...the movie is very good because it teaches me the history of kung fu...cool man...is a vey meaningful story...incredible story la...i watch 2.50pm de...then finish at about 4.45pm...after that go siew yeng em em house to pass jason's passport and also the bak chang...Jason is going to North of Eupore with andy, pek pek, em em and grandpa...at first i also wanted to follow but will miss 6 days class...so on second thought...i don't want to go lo...will miss a lot...so have to wait the next time...haiz...miss a big opportunity...nevermind la...next time go with mum...wait lo...then 6pm go eat pizza hut with pei chiew...eat the new thing...is ok...but is too much mayonnaise...we eat and talk until about 7pm...then we go back...that all for today...nothing much to write...because only 1 class nia la...so write tomorrow...wah...can't wait till tomorrow...coz tomorrow is doing croissant in bakery class...my favorite...so write tomorrow...sure got lots to write de...so bye...now is 10.38pm...still early rite????....hehe..............
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