11.22am....
I'm still writing, this is because i don't write for sometime already and everything happen quite sudden. I cannot say out, so i have to write out to feel better. Talk about yesterday's things. Thinking....... She was crazy la, no reason just beat me. CRAZY. Actually everything happen because of her, how she think she is, start everything, then now want to end, no solution, ask advice, give advice, say crazy, say she is sad, feel disappointed, feel emo, everything is her problem, then no mood, ah, and always likes to say she no mood, blar blar blar, then can simply hit people la. CRAZY. She yesterday don't know hit me for how many time, is her problem la. Yesterday bakery class everything i do myself, where the rest go, the twins go out, she go buy drinks with N, go until don't know when to come back, then when come back, take my note and copy, then ask this ask that. The time when she is not around, chef got teaches some things, but i don't want to tell her, why must i tell??? If she really care, she should be around listening and doing. Then she say, oh, everything you do, chef notice u. What does she meant?? I have the feeling she likes him. 三心两义. Not need to say others la, actually she also same one. Sure chef got notice me la, i'm the one who do everything, asking for things when i don't know, ask for advice when don't understand, if not i do, who take care of our product??? Then she hit me, CRAZY. I pay so much money to learn and ask if don't understand, the course cost RM33K la, not cheap. Actually i should not listen what she say, she is very bossy and fussy and 麻烦 and also trouble maker and problem maker, a lot la, to me, i only see her negative side, cannot see her positive side. Before the singapore trip and after the trip, i don't know why, i felt that she become a person that i don't know already. Before there is nothing, but after come back from the trip, all her negative side like come out, sometimes i really really really hate her. I even sometimes felt that i tu lan her, getting very tired la. Later some more with her do pudding, haiz, can change others ar?? 烦啊, 烦啊, 烦啊, 烦啊, 烦啊, 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊............ going to cray soon, she not mood can simply hit people de meh?? who she think she is??? very pek chek... hate the world... hate everything... hate all... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... hate... Some more say BFF, to her only, to me no, only friend. A better saying, Good Friend. No forever. No way. Impossible. I feel better now. that all for now. the time now is 11.54am.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
15th...
16th June... wed... 10.45am......
I'm so frustrated these days, especially with someone. The things that non of my business also can become my business, so geram, very hate it but i can't say a thing because i'm always the good and kind person, so i keep everything in my heart. I'm also a person with feeling, but someone always just don't care, hate it. A person, or call as R, got lots and lots of problem. After this then that, after that then this, so tired with her nowadays. Now i know that the words she said was always not true, so from now on, i'll not believe a word she say anymore. Lie-er. At the begining, she likes a guy, but this guy likes another girl after his ex-girlfriend, then who know a friend, call as N, also like the same guy, what the... so N told R, the R like very sad, because she also fallen for the same guy. Then R told me, then i told her that if she really like him, go tell him the truth lo, but she don't want because of her size. Who said that a FAT person does not deserved a true love??? Everyone deserved to have a guy or girl. Then later come her admire, a chef, call D. When she does not sees D around, she will feel disappointed. What the... again. So what, if want to see him, go find him la. Then now come another one, also a chef, teaches me bakery, call him as Z. She usually got sms with him, but if he did not reply her, she say she feel sad, STUPID. Then yesterday she say she will be crazy, actually everything she started it first, problem maker. So now she got 3 guy in her mind. Again she say that she likes Z, but cannot let go of the guy, S. Sometimes i felt that help her also no used, she always say cannot forget la, cannot give up la, blar blar blar, then also she today no mood la, that day no mood la, always emo la, HELLO, you pay so much money to come study one, not to like or felt or admire a person one. WASTE MONEY. Don's affect me la, i come to study one, not like u one. That is why i don't want to have that feeling, like someone, admire someone, sms nonsense with someone, i knew that if i do like this, will end up like her, so if someone really want to pikat me, i will say let be friend, easier and better, like this less problem will occur, if someone really like me one, i will ask them to wait to i graduate. Thanks to my dad, my heart already become cold and will not trust men. I always sees that my dad always treat my mum invisible, even my mum sick also i'm the one who always at her side, even my mum was giving to 3 of us, where was him??? To him, working is important then family, ok lo, if anything happen, u don't regret, and i believe that when he regret, everything is too late. As a daughter, i love my dad, but as a women, i hate this kind of men. Then is why when people ask me why i don't want to have bf, i say i don't trust men anymore, even when people say will u get married, my answer is always no, although sometimes i got think of that question. Another reason why i don't want to have bf is because of my stupid and selfish family background, and my mind always says that men will pikat me is because of my background, i think i watch too much movies, end up cheat by them. That is why i don't say about my family, if got ask only i say. So in conclusion, my heart already become cold, so i will not accept anyone, only friends will do. EASIER.
I'm so frustrated these days, especially with someone. The things that non of my business also can become my business, so geram, very hate it but i can't say a thing because i'm always the good and kind person, so i keep everything in my heart. I'm also a person with feeling, but someone always just don't care, hate it. A person, or call as R, got lots and lots of problem. After this then that, after that then this, so tired with her nowadays. Now i know that the words she said was always not true, so from now on, i'll not believe a word she say anymore. Lie-er. At the begining, she likes a guy, but this guy likes another girl after his ex-girlfriend, then who know a friend, call as N, also like the same guy, what the... so N told R, the R like very sad, because she also fallen for the same guy. Then R told me, then i told her that if she really like him, go tell him the truth lo, but she don't want because of her size. Who said that a FAT person does not deserved a true love??? Everyone deserved to have a guy or girl. Then later come her admire, a chef, call D. When she does not sees D around, she will feel disappointed. What the... again. So what, if want to see him, go find him la. Then now come another one, also a chef, teaches me bakery, call him as Z. She usually got sms with him, but if he did not reply her, she say she feel sad, STUPID. Then yesterday she say she will be crazy, actually everything she started it first, problem maker. So now she got 3 guy in her mind. Again she say that she likes Z, but cannot let go of the guy, S. Sometimes i felt that help her also no used, she always say cannot forget la, cannot give up la, blar blar blar, then also she today no mood la, that day no mood la, always emo la, HELLO, you pay so much money to come study one, not to like or felt or admire a person one. WASTE MONEY. Don's affect me la, i come to study one, not like u one. That is why i don't want to have that feeling, like someone, admire someone, sms nonsense with someone, i knew that if i do like this, will end up like her, so if someone really want to pikat me, i will say let be friend, easier and better, like this less problem will occur, if someone really like me one, i will ask them to wait to i graduate. Thanks to my dad, my heart already become cold and will not trust men. I always sees that my dad always treat my mum invisible, even my mum sick also i'm the one who always at her side, even my mum was giving to 3 of us, where was him??? To him, working is important then family, ok lo, if anything happen, u don't regret, and i believe that when he regret, everything is too late. As a daughter, i love my dad, but as a women, i hate this kind of men. Then is why when people ask me why i don't want to have bf, i say i don't trust men anymore, even when people say will u get married, my answer is always no, although sometimes i got think of that question. Another reason why i don't want to have bf is because of my stupid and selfish family background, and my mind always says that men will pikat me is because of my background, i think i watch too much movies, end up cheat by them. That is why i don't say about my family, if got ask only i say. So in conclusion, my heart already become cold, so i will not accept anyone, only friends will do. EASIER.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
14th...
8th of June...tuesday...11.04pm...
so fast already write until the 14th...time pass very fast...my bro had gone to russia for 12 days...so fun...at first i want to go de...but because i will skip class for 2 weeks...so don't want...but on monday night i bring jason to airport...i suddenly felt that i wants to go...so regret...if i know i will choose to go too...haiz...really stating to hate to go college and felt lazy...hardly have this feeling...hate the lecturer and chefs...hate aravin...actually from semester 1 starts...i don't like him...i had the feeling...i felt that i'm getting very tired...even felt that hating people around me...but normally i hardly show...i always laugh one...a cheerful person...i think i felt for someone...but not obvious...just R told me that i'm cute...haha...am i???...she that my reaction is very cute...because of that...most of course mates likes to play with me... actually i'm not...i just got the feeling that when i always sees him...i automatic will laugh...don't know why...is it i'm stating to fall for him???...i never had that...because a smile...means that i like someone...impossible...don't know la...my brain is stuck and slow these few days...ahhhhhhh...i always see article...that is when you fall for someone...the feeling is like this this and this...but the problem is i don't have those feeling leh...haiz...don't know la...maybe i watch too much drama...i always thought that rich person will not get their own happiness...most of the guy chase rich girls because of the family background...that is why i'm afraid and don't dare to find guy...i always had the thoughts until now...i'm afraid they will used me...is late already...sleeping time...11.48pm.....
so fast already write until the 14th...time pass very fast...my bro had gone to russia for 12 days...so fun...at first i want to go de...but because i will skip class for 2 weeks...so don't want...but on monday night i bring jason to airport...i suddenly felt that i wants to go...so regret...if i know i will choose to go too...haiz...really stating to hate to go college and felt lazy...hardly have this feeling...hate the lecturer and chefs...hate aravin...actually from semester 1 starts...i don't like him...i had the feeling...i felt that i'm getting very tired...even felt that hating people around me...but normally i hardly show...i always laugh one...a cheerful person...i think i felt for someone...but not obvious...just R told me that i'm cute...haha...am i???...she that my reaction is very cute...because of that...most of course mates likes to play with me... actually i'm not...i just got the feeling that when i always sees him...i automatic will laugh...don't know why...is it i'm stating to fall for him???...i never had that...because a smile...means that i like someone...impossible...don't know la...my brain is stuck and slow these few days...ahhhhhhh...i always see article...that is when you fall for someone...the feeling is like this this and this...but the problem is i don't have those feeling leh...haiz...don't know la...maybe i watch too much drama...i always thought that rich person will not get their own happiness...most of the guy chase rich girls because of the family background...that is why i'm afraid and don't dare to find guy...i always had the thoughts until now...i'm afraid they will used me...is late already...sleeping time...11.48pm.....
Monday, May 31, 2010
13th...
1st June...Tuesday...9.52am...........
wa...so fast almost 1/2 year gone already...so fast...see how time flies...actually last night i had written...but cannot be saved...so have to write again today...i really...really...really...hate staying at palazzo...at first i already told them that i want to stay my own...but they don't let...my dad keep on telling to stay at palazzo...i knew this will happened...that is why i don't want to stay there...like dungeon...no freedom...i have feeling that quite accurate at times...staying there very pressure...especially with grandpa around...late come back...complain...go early...complain...what i do always complain...stay in my room do my things also complain...complain why always 'hide' myself inside the room...if i'm outside...i don't know what to do...the channel he watch is not suitable for me...the show i watch not suitable for him...how leh???...that is why i always come to college early...is because i kam buan sleep less also don't want to stay there...but no will understand me de...always when R asked where am i...i always answer that i'm in college...then she will say me crazy...get to sleep don't want to sleep...if she was me...maybe she will understand everything...and also i always cannot sleep when at palazzo...but when i'm at home...i sleep like a pig...at palazzo usually i sleep late and wake up before alarm rings...but when at home...although alarm had rings lots of time...i also cannot wake up de...weird right???...nowadays i don't know what my grandpa is thinking...to me...i felt that he had change a lot since my grandma pass away...totally like changing to another person...when the 2 precious around...others are like invisible...but when both of them is not around...the others like suddenly become visible...crazy...when mummy's grandma (ah chor) pass away...we (D, J, S) cannot go pay respect de...she was still my elderly...n she also very sayang 3 of us...although we did not meet often...once in a blue moon...recently mmmuy's 3rd uncle pass away...they warned us that we cannot go to the funeral...what the hell...why cannot go...crazy man...but i don't care...i still follow mum to the funeral and send uncle to his 'new home'...J ans S did not follow so they stay at grandma taiping house...why they are so selfish???...even my grandpa's brother pass away...the grandchildren are not allow to go de...i felt very weird...why can't we go...also i don't care...i teman mum go...he is still my uncle ma...from july 2009 unil now...already gone a few person...not yet even 1 year...grandma, ah chor (taiping), grandpa taiping, 3rd pek gong (grandpa's brother) and now mum's 3rd uncle...all so fast and near...don't know who is next...(ei...don't simply say...nothing will happen anymore)...not i want to say...but is like the truth la...i'm really getting very tired and pissed off...mum always tell me that don't bother them...imagine that i'm like staying in a 6 star hotel...but sometimes cannot...hard la...because of them...i prefer not to stay there...i rather wake up early and come to college early...better...if not...no freedom at all...always after class...most of the friends will asked whether want to go out eat together...and my answer always is next time la...if i did not reach back there by the time...i'll get killed...i always says that...i also used to the word 'next time'...sometimes i wonder why god want me to born in this family???...i love my mum, jason and mei mei...but hate the family...i prefer to born in moderate family...maybe will be happier...better let this then in this family...rich and selfish and also kiam siap...cheapskate...HATE ALL OF THEM...i really don't know who is my grandpa anymore...i don't know what thing had given to him until he become let this...like a stranger to me...he only listens to his two daughter and the only son words...others he don't bother...like now...he wants to find a women which is in 50 i think to accompany him...no marriage will happened...hard to say...one month about 2-3 thousand something...before that he likes a girl...but guess the age???...is only 29...what the hell...Alex already 21 la...i'm already 19...can become my sister la...most of us disagree but because the only son say yes...he was so happy until he smile for the whole week...see la...when he knew that we disagree...he will show us the face for a week...see la...fare a not???...they think they are smart...they did not think far...now ok...if anything happened in future...he will putar balik to blame us...ah...like he will say why we did not disagree la...the nonsense...end up we kena marah for no reason...why my grandpa so listen to the only son's word...don't know what medicine had given to him...like he had been put in magic...everything we do hear is always wrong...they do is always right...sometimes they do nonsense also can become correct...what we do if right...all the things is always given to him...fare meh???...bad thing we take...good thing he take...but the things is done by someone else...not himself...i hope that 1 day...his precious son and daughter 被人绑架...then 撕票...get KILLED...then see la...wahahahahahahahahahahahaha..................then his car let people use coins and scratch...finally let go everything...free......1 word...爽...wa for about 1 hour...hand pain already...want to rest liao........11.30am...
wa...so fast almost 1/2 year gone already...so fast...see how time flies...actually last night i had written...but cannot be saved...so have to write again today...i really...really...really...hate staying at palazzo...at first i already told them that i want to stay my own...but they don't let...my dad keep on telling to stay at palazzo...i knew this will happened...that is why i don't want to stay there...like dungeon...no freedom...i have feeling that quite accurate at times...staying there very pressure...especially with grandpa around...late come back...complain...go early...complain...what i do always complain...stay in my room do my things also complain...complain why always 'hide' myself inside the room...if i'm outside...i don't know what to do...the channel he watch is not suitable for me...the show i watch not suitable for him...how leh???...that is why i always come to college early...is because i kam buan sleep less also don't want to stay there...but no will understand me de...always when R asked where am i...i always answer that i'm in college...then she will say me crazy...get to sleep don't want to sleep...if she was me...maybe she will understand everything...and also i always cannot sleep when at palazzo...but when i'm at home...i sleep like a pig...at palazzo usually i sleep late and wake up before alarm rings...but when at home...although alarm had rings lots of time...i also cannot wake up de...weird right???...nowadays i don't know what my grandpa is thinking...to me...i felt that he had change a lot since my grandma pass away...totally like changing to another person...when the 2 precious around...others are like invisible...but when both of them is not around...the others like suddenly become visible...crazy...when mummy's grandma (ah chor) pass away...we (D, J, S) cannot go pay respect de...she was still my elderly...n she also very sayang 3 of us...although we did not meet often...once in a blue moon...recently mmmuy's 3rd uncle pass away...they warned us that we cannot go to the funeral...what the hell...why cannot go...crazy man...but i don't care...i still follow mum to the funeral and send uncle to his 'new home'...J ans S did not follow so they stay at grandma taiping house...why they are so selfish???...even my grandpa's brother pass away...the grandchildren are not allow to go de...i felt very weird...why can't we go...also i don't care...i teman mum go...he is still my uncle ma...from july 2009 unil now...already gone a few person...not yet even 1 year...grandma, ah chor (taiping), grandpa taiping, 3rd pek gong (grandpa's brother) and now mum's 3rd uncle...all so fast and near...don't know who is next...(ei...don't simply say...nothing will happen anymore)...not i want to say...but is like the truth la...i'm really getting very tired and pissed off...mum always tell me that don't bother them...imagine that i'm like staying in a 6 star hotel...but sometimes cannot...hard la...because of them...i prefer not to stay there...i rather wake up early and come to college early...better...if not...no freedom at all...always after class...most of the friends will asked whether want to go out eat together...and my answer always is next time la...if i did not reach back there by the time...i'll get killed...i always says that...i also used to the word 'next time'...sometimes i wonder why god want me to born in this family???...i love my mum, jason and mei mei...but hate the family...i prefer to born in moderate family...maybe will be happier...better let this then in this family...rich and selfish and also kiam siap...cheapskate...HATE ALL OF THEM...i really don't know who is my grandpa anymore...i don't know what thing had given to him until he become let this...like a stranger to me...he only listens to his two daughter and the only son words...others he don't bother...like now...he wants to find a women which is in 50 i think to accompany him...no marriage will happened...hard to say...one month about 2-3 thousand something...before that he likes a girl...but guess the age???...is only 29...what the hell...Alex already 21 la...i'm already 19...can become my sister la...most of us disagree but because the only son say yes...he was so happy until he smile for the whole week...see la...when he knew that we disagree...he will show us the face for a week...see la...fare a not???...they think they are smart...they did not think far...now ok...if anything happened in future...he will putar balik to blame us...ah...like he will say why we did not disagree la...the nonsense...end up we kena marah for no reason...why my grandpa so listen to the only son's word...don't know what medicine had given to him...like he had been put in magic...everything we do hear is always wrong...they do is always right...sometimes they do nonsense also can become correct...what we do if right...all the things is always given to him...fare meh???...bad thing we take...good thing he take...but the things is done by someone else...not himself...i hope that 1 day...his precious son and daughter 被人绑架...then 撕票...get KILLED...then see la...wahahahahahahahahahahahaha..................then his car let people use coins and scratch...finally let go everything...free......1 word...爽...wa for about 1 hour...hand pain already...want to rest liao........11.30am...
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
12th......
27th May...thursday...1.12pm.........
these few days i'm been thinking that am i a visible or an invisible person???...don't know why i have these feeling these days...sometimes they talk, laugh and more with but sometimes no...some of them like totally ignore me...did i do wrong ah???...i'm trying to mixed around but if they continue act let this...how can mixed in leh???...so suffer for me...if i don't talk much...say i'm quite...i talked...say i'm talkative...when i'm at home...i can talk from a thing to nonsense...but at college...i can't...don't know...i guess i do care what people think about me...if keep on let this...i'll lose all my confident...go for seminar also no used...actually i have confident de...but don't know how i can lose them just a blink...haiz...don't know what to do la...had been a week i did not write...not free...buzy...assignments...night classes...i'll go crazy soon...like this tuesday...culinary arts and design class...doing painting and R didn't come to class...i was alone...and like i'm invisible...i'm just standing there and non of them see me (the group people)...i had broken my record...that is did not talk for more than 1 hour..."thumb up" for me...haha...don't know why my heart feel not good...like heartbroken...very sour feeling...why???...i'm trying to get my confident back now...but how???...is very hard la...my confident level left only i think 20%...haiz...write tonight...1.28pm...
these few days i'm been thinking that am i a visible or an invisible person???...don't know why i have these feeling these days...sometimes they talk, laugh and more with but sometimes no...some of them like totally ignore me...did i do wrong ah???...i'm trying to mixed around but if they continue act let this...how can mixed in leh???...so suffer for me...if i don't talk much...say i'm quite...i talked...say i'm talkative...when i'm at home...i can talk from a thing to nonsense...but at college...i can't...don't know...i guess i do care what people think about me...if keep on let this...i'll lose all my confident...go for seminar also no used...actually i have confident de...but don't know how i can lose them just a blink...haiz...don't know what to do la...had been a week i did not write...not free...buzy...assignments...night classes...i'll go crazy soon...like this tuesday...culinary arts and design class...doing painting and R didn't come to class...i was alone...and like i'm invisible...i'm just standing there and non of them see me (the group people)...i had broken my record...that is did not talk for more than 1 hour..."thumb up" for me...haha...don't know why my heart feel not good...like heartbroken...very sour feeling...why???...i'm trying to get my confident back now...but how???...is very hard la...my confident level left only i think 20%...haiz...write tonight...1.28pm...
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
11th....
18th may...tuesday...11.53pm.............
7 more minutes to 12am...the next day...haiz...so tired...but still there is some friends went out to eat dinner...wa...i hope that i can go too...but can't...is impossible...if my mum finds out...i'll kena from her de...is dangerous...better don't...if my grandpa and aunt knows...i'll also can't figure what will happen to ME...don't want to think about that...i'm so hungry now ...just now i should eat more...see la...now hungry pula...haiz...yesterday in the 17th...morning wake up at 9am...then go pasar with mum...after that go makan...at 11.00am 'fly' to penang...12.15pm reach class room...i'm always late on mon...hehe...then class finish at about 2pm...then go canteen makan with friends...then discuss the presentation stuff until 4.25pm...then go class room...presentation time...total got about 10 groups to present...and each group have a chance to be a judge, time keeper and the person who ask the presenter questions...goes quite well...good...ao finish late...at about 7pm...actually before that...i get a phone call from yeng em em...but i didn't reply or call back...then koko call...still at class...so didn't pick up again...when class ended...mum call...i pick up...she ask they were looking for me...i thought the last thursday i got mention that class will finish at 6.30pm...forget...haiz...and i thought she got take note...who know...no...not yet night already rush...rush...rush...can't imagine if is at night...charm la...hiaz again...let write about today...like usual...go to college early...reach college go have breakfast first...the go library play zuma revenge...then at about 11.30am go canteen...sit sit only...then 12pm go class for CAD 1 class (culinary arts and design 1)...half way go canteen have lunch...finish at 5pm...go to kitchen for bakery class at 5.30pm...do croissant...not as easy as it seems...so hard...takes time...that is why come back at 11pm something...tired...and chef say the actual croissant is use unsalted butter...not pastry margarine...so even harder...because butter melted easily...need to fold once...the put in the freezer...because the freezer keeps on open and close...so is hard to freeze...have to wait, wait and wait...leg pain ah...and more thing is that because the yeast is not accurate...so the dough cannot double the saiz...problem...thanks to someone...i'm so pissed off...then someone help to put the unbaked croissant to the oven but forget to press on...again...lucky i got saw...is not charm lo...don't know when only can be done...chef zaihan not feeling well...tooth ache...he looks so tired...so i said i'll help the end...so he go back first...pity him...not well still can teach...my class is a very noisy class...but he still can manage...thumbs up for him...ho liao...when i come back to palazzo...the stupid person parks his two car at the top...pissed off again...already very tired and still this situation...stupid person...down got place to park...his pivate place...don't want to park...so park one of his stupid car at my spot...i'm so angry...really stupid...hate him and his family...too sombong and think that he is the greatest...use money to buy the dato title...let this kind of person be a dato ah???...stupid and cray...very useless...HATE HIM AND HIS FAMILY...angry now...haiz...that is all for now...12.24am...
7 more minutes to 12am...the next day...haiz...so tired...but still there is some friends went out to eat dinner...wa...i hope that i can go too...but can't...is impossible...if my mum finds out...i'll kena from her de...is dangerous...better don't...if my grandpa and aunt knows...i'll also can't figure what will happen to ME...don't want to think about that...i'm so hungry now ...just now i should eat more...see la...now hungry pula...haiz...yesterday in the 17th...morning wake up at 9am...then go pasar with mum...after that go makan...at 11.00am 'fly' to penang...12.15pm reach class room...i'm always late on mon...hehe...then class finish at about 2pm...then go canteen makan with friends...then discuss the presentation stuff until 4.25pm...then go class room...presentation time...total got about 10 groups to present...and each group have a chance to be a judge, time keeper and the person who ask the presenter questions...goes quite well...good...ao finish late...at about 7pm...actually before that...i get a phone call from yeng em em...but i didn't reply or call back...then koko call...still at class...so didn't pick up again...when class ended...mum call...i pick up...she ask they were looking for me...i thought the last thursday i got mention that class will finish at 6.30pm...forget...haiz...and i thought she got take note...who know...no...not yet night already rush...rush...rush...can't imagine if is at night...charm la...hiaz again...let write about today...like usual...go to college early...reach college go have breakfast first...the go library play zuma revenge...then at about 11.30am go canteen...sit sit only...then 12pm go class for CAD 1 class (culinary arts and design 1)...half way go canteen have lunch...finish at 5pm...go to kitchen for bakery class at 5.30pm...do croissant...not as easy as it seems...so hard...takes time...that is why come back at 11pm something...tired...and chef say the actual croissant is use unsalted butter...not pastry margarine...so even harder...because butter melted easily...need to fold once...the put in the freezer...because the freezer keeps on open and close...so is hard to freeze...have to wait, wait and wait...leg pain ah...and more thing is that because the yeast is not accurate...so the dough cannot double the saiz...problem...thanks to someone...i'm so pissed off...then someone help to put the unbaked croissant to the oven but forget to press on...again...lucky i got saw...is not charm lo...don't know when only can be done...chef zaihan not feeling well...tooth ache...he looks so tired...so i said i'll help the end...so he go back first...pity him...not well still can teach...my class is a very noisy class...but he still can manage...thumbs up for him...ho liao...when i come back to palazzo...the stupid person parks his two car at the top...pissed off again...already very tired and still this situation...stupid person...down got place to park...his pivate place...don't want to park...so park one of his stupid car at my spot...i'm so angry...really stupid...hate him and his family...too sombong and think that he is the greatest...use money to buy the dato title...let this kind of person be a dato ah???...stupid and cray...very useless...HATE HIM AND HIS FAMILY...angry now...haiz...that is all for now...12.24am...
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)